It's a Beautiful Day

It was a beautiful day when Barrack Obama officially became the 44th President of the United States. I, like most of this country hopes for good change to happen to this country. I'd like to see the ecomomy get better so there will be more jobs. If consumers aren't buying things, the stores and companies and stuff will suffer, cut jobs, etc then we'll spiral down into a recession.
I've been feeling better these days. I went to welcome dinner last Friday. Someone named Suzie was hosting the dinner at her apartment in Brookline. I met some people and stuff. At this welcome dinner, there was a real dinner, not just soup or pizza.
I had to leave early cause I had driver's ed in the morning. After driver's ed, Mom, Matt, Christina and I ate dinner at the Anchor before going to Boston to see a play at the ART. The play was The Seagull. I thought it was good, it was a more serious play, written by a Russian playwright so it was melodramtic. The play was long- it was nearly 11pm when it was over.
We stayed up late Saturday night watching movies and shows on TV. I didn't do much Sunday. Just went to Boston to stay the night. Mary is still in Irealnd, so Mom and I have been in Boston for most of this week. I went to Cafe Tuesday night but didn't have to worry about having money for the train. I went to Connecting Group. Someone had brought cookies for snacks. I talked to some people then went to Kenndy's to hang out. I didn't have enough money for beer. I just got soda which didn't cost me anything.
I think I had confindence that night which drew people in to hang out with me. I got two invites- one from John to go ice skating tongiht at a community skating rink in Cambridge. I was gonna rent skates and have someone help me while I skate, but I told Mom and Matt about my plans and they said I couldn't ice skate cause I would get hurt from falling on the ice- like break a bone.
They said I could go out to meet people there and watch people ice skate. I'm debating whether or not I should still go out. I'd get out of the house but I'd have to find something to eat and with the money I have, I can't afford much for food.
Patrick invited me to do something a week from tomorrow. I might still have driver's ed but I'll go out afterwards. I'll give Patrick my e-mail Tuesday.
Wednesday night, I saw an opera at a movie theater in Revere. The Metropoltian Opera tapes thier shows and replays them to movie theaters so people who can't afford to see the operas live can see them. We saw La Rondine. It was good. We didn't go out to eat. We ate at home. The next time, we'll go out to eat at a restarant that's inside the theater. I didn't mention that I'm going to the bathroom around Christina cause when I mention it, she minicks me and tells Mom she has to use the bathroom as well. Mom doesn't like spending all her time in bathrooms when we go out. The less times Christina goes, the better. When she doesn't have to at all, that's even better!

Friends. How many of us has them ?

So, I've been trying to connect with people at Cafe but it's very frusterating. I just meet people and get asked "how was your week ?" Pretty boring. How about yours? Oh, wait. Your week wasn't dull. You work for a living. How lucky you are. The ecomony is too far down the crapshoot for someone like me to even consider getting a job.
I've yet to register for a class at Northshore Community College. I'll do that once I write this blog. I was gonna go to the school and register in person but Mom had other things to do. If I register online and find out how the hell you do this, then I'll be all set for this semester. I'm sort of keeping busy. I'm taking driver's ed on Saturdays. It's a goal of mine to get my permit, take the road test and get my license, and a car so that whenever the economy gets better, I'll be able to have a job that will pay well enough for me to support myself as much as I can.
While I'm going through this divorce process thing, I'll put my name in a few waiting lists for subsidized housing. It's another goal of mine to live indepdendently- away from Mom and Matt. I like living with them, but I'm not gonna live with them by the time I'm 40!
I still go to Cafe Tuesday nights but has made little to no connections with people there. These people work during the week. Which is why it's good for me to have something to do like taking a class at Northshore. It will break up the week, and make me feel cofindent.
I still want to go to the Y someday and get some exercise. Over the past few months, I've put on some weight. When I was with Caleb, I lost weight cause we rode bikes everywhere. I know I can't do this year round cause this is New England. Well, some people ride bikes year round. I don't though. I'm trying to get motivated enough to at least walk around town when I'm home or even in Boston!
No, what I choose to do is log online hoping someone will be on Facebook to talk to, eat ice cream late at night while watching TV. I hope I get out of this rut soon.

Three Months Notice

For the past three months, I've been seeing John. I called him back in the fall to get together and talk cause I was so broken up about being separated from Caleb. We saw each other for three months, but not consistently.
We hung out about once a month for the past three months. I was starting to get used to seeing him but as usual, he changed his mind about us being together cause his family pressured him to do so.
John will never be his own man. He'll always do what others say is right for him. He'll probably be forever single cause I was the only girl who loved him and understood him, and had that chemistry... I'm sure I'll find love with a better guy someday.. somone who will be his own man!
In a way, I'm happy John and I will never be together cause I like flirtting with guys at Cafe. I know most of them have some type of job, so I can never messure up. Still, it's good to talk with other guys and make connections.
I'm gonna be taking driver's ed at a driving school in Salem starting this Saturday. The course is five Saturdays from 9am-4pm. That's a long day. I'm doing it so I can take the written test for my learner's permit. Once this happens, I'll go to Shangesey hospital to get evualted as to if I'll need adaptive eqipment for when I get my license and a car of my own.
I'll be so happy when I get my license and a car. I'll feel normal like everyone else. Having my license and a car will make me more markteable for jobs- if the ecomony ever gets better! I'd have the independence to go as a please and not have to rely on Mom, Matt, or friends to give me rides to places, I'd be out of the weather elements which would be good on bitterly cold days in the winter and hot humid days in the summer.
Tonight, I went to the Cambridge mall on the subway. I got a book at Borders. My aunt had given me $25 on a gift card. After I brought the book, I had $4 left on the card so I got a cafe mocha at the cafe. I was gonna drink my mocha and read the book I'd brought but I had to be at Christina's for dinner. John had written me on Facebook about us not dating anymore.. we won't go back and forth anymore. This is it. We'll never date again. He told me he wants to still keep in touch on Facebook. though! That's just a slap in the face and he knew it. I read his message and replied to it but I deleted him from my Facebook page. I'll ignore freind requests from him.
Still staying in Boston a few nights a week. I'm there now. It's almost 8pm. I'll log onto Facebook to see if there's any other friends I can talk to. I'll watch Grey's Anatomy at 9, watch the news at 10, my weekly Sex in the City fix, then go to bed. Yes, my life is so exciting.